Thursday, August 18, 2011
I feel really depressed today. I feel that life isn't worth living anymore. I feel engulfed in my loneliness. Loneliness that no one can take away. No one can understand how I feel and it's frusterating. I hurt all day every day. My heart aches for Brian's love. Tomorrow marks one month. I can't do this for the rest of my life. It hurts too bad. Everyone says it will get better but those words carry no meaning to me. They don't know this feeling..I lost the love of my life. Everyone has someone. I sleep alone every night now. Brian understood me in a way that nobody else did. He was the best friend I've ever had. I feel so lost. I feel like I'm never going to meet anyone. Let alone anyone worth loving.