I had this friend that I have known for about five years. She is younger than me by a couple of years. I met her through myspace because she was dating this guy that I was starting to hang out with. We had a lot of mutual friends and she messaged me and we started texting and hanging out. It turns out she was on drugs. UGH! Do i hate drugs! She was a good person though and we had fun talking to each other. I ended up renting a room from her nana and shortly after she realized she was four (!!) months pregnant. We became best friends over this time because all of her friends wanted nothing to do with her. She wasn't going to be "fun" anymore. I felt bad for her because she was very sweet and really hurt by her friends.
Fast forward to now. Her child is the cutest little girl I've ever seen and is going to be four this year. I have watched her grow up and I have watched my friend get lost in drugs again and again. I have been battling with stopping my friendship with her for a very long time. I cannot sit back and watch her do drugs and ruin her life. Her head is in the clouds and no one is important to her anymore, not even her child. Her child is what has kept our friendship alive for so long. I feel so bad for the baby and wanted to be around for her. I always become the babysitter when we hang out, My "friend" always dissapears on the phone with her boyfriend when I come over. I have held on and kept telling myself that she needs a good friend in her life and she's just having a hard time...yada yada.
The first time I went wedding dress shopping, she didn't show up until the very end. Literally. I was done trying on dresses. She lives DOWN THE STREET! UGH. I let it go. Yesterday I went back to that same shop and this girl flaked on me again. She had confirmed coming the night before and the morning of. She also knew for a whole entire week. I get it if you don't want to come or can't but why can't I get a call or text saying so? Instead she ignores my calls and texts. I am very veryyy hurt by this. This is really important to me and she has been my best friend and it ment a lot to me for her to be there. I can't count on her ever. So I sent her a text saying I was done being her friend.
I needed to get this out.. I have kept it inside for too long. I feel free from this friendship. It was always so stressful for me but I didn't want to give up on her..It's just sad to have to re-evaluate a friend at a time like this. I'm getting married in 7 months! I wanted her to be apart of this.
I wanted to write this down so I remember how I felt and why I made the decision I did. Losing a friend is a sad thing, but I do have amazing friends (like Mia and Chelsea) that are always here for me. Things like this make you appreciate your real friends even more.