long beach

I have been house sitting for a friend of mine for a couple of weeks. My friend has a super cute studio in long beach. It's in a super cute artsy area on fourth street. Brian and I have been trying tons of new places to eat and having fun walking places. I love the small town vibe that downtown long beach has. It has such a charm. I grew up here for 16 years but never appreciated it. I live in orange county and everything is so spread out and mostly not in walking distance (unless you want to walk several miles).

brain storm

I am taking some time to focus on myself. It feels like forever since I have sat alone and let my mind wonder and dream. I have so many ideas of things I want to do it surprised me. I am now carrying a notebook around with me to jot my thoughts and ideas down. It feels extremely refreshing.

Have you ever lost yourself?

it's been awhile...

Here's what I've been up to.


























How are all my pals doing?

I can never think of a cool title

I had a lazy weekend and it was all I had been dreaming of. I'm a dental assistant and although it may not sound like that hard of a job but it is pretty demanding. I am on my feet 8 hours a day and always busy. I love it but by the weekend I am exhausted!



Yesterday my aunts ("the twins") got some tickets to the ducks game. I love going hockey games! Baseball games too! I plan on going to as many baseball games as I can this season. The ducks won! YAY! I even got to see a hat trick (and learned what it is! It's when the same player scores 3 goals in one game.)



I had today off of work and we had such a nice day. We did some spring cleaning and had a good, late breakfast and even drove to the beach!


I played with my yarn and did a little crocheting. It was so beautiful today! It was warm and there was a nice breeze. I love this weather.


Living so close to the beach is amazing. I don't know what it would be like to not live close to the beach. We are lucky.



There is NOTHING like putting your feet in the sand.



I ended the night by going to the gym with my baby brother and sister. My sister actually came to pick me up! It's so weird that she can drive now (they both can). They're still babies to me. I can't believe how grown up they are!

It was really nice to work out. REALLY nice! I have plans to take some classes and keep a gym routine strong. It's easy to slack off when it comes to working out. I always feel so much better.

xo!

portland

The almost-hubby and I are absolutely in love with Portland, OR. B's sister lived there for a few years and we have always wanted to move there after visiting. Our game plan is to move there after the wedding (and saving a good cushion of $$).

I came across House of James and her photos of Portland. These pictures speak to me and remind me why I love this city and can't wait to live there.























Xo!

q u i c k hello

Today was so emotional. I am so thankful tomorrow is friday. I need a couple of days of rest and relaxation. Saturday I have an appointment to try on more wedding dresses! not just any wedding dresses...Ivy & Aster dresses! le sigh! I am a little giddy about this. I have found my wedding dress so this is just for fun since I have had the appointment for a month.

I am trying to get out of this non sewing rut I'm in so I went to joann's and looked at all the pretty fabric and was so inspired! I want to start Rachel's Modern Patchwork this weekend. That girl is amazing, she has the cutest style too!

Any fun weekend plans? I'd love to hear about them all!

xo!

I had this friend

I had this friend that I have known for about five years. She is younger than me by a couple of years. I met her through myspace because she was dating this guy that I was starting to hang out with. We had a lot of mutual friends and she messaged me and we started texting and hanging out. It turns out she was on drugs. UGH! Do i hate drugs! She was a good person though and we had fun talking to each other. I ended up renting a room from her nana and shortly after she realized she was four (!!) months pregnant. We became best friends over this time because all of her friends wanted nothing to do with her. She wasn't going to be "fun" anymore. I felt bad for her because she was very sweet and really hurt by her friends.

Fast forward to now. Her child is the cutest little girl I've ever seen and is going to be four this year. I have watched her grow up and I have watched my friend get lost in drugs again and again. I have been battling with stopping my friendship with her for a very long time. I cannot sit back and watch her do drugs and ruin her life. Her head is in the clouds and no one is important to her anymore, not even her child. Her child is what has kept our friendship alive for so long. I feel so bad for the baby and wanted to be around for her. I always become the babysitter when we hang out, My "friend" always dissapears on the phone with her boyfriend when I come over. I have held on and kept telling myself that she needs a good friend in her life and she's just having a hard time...yada yada.

The first time I went wedding dress shopping, she didn't show up until the very end. Literally. I was done trying on dresses. She lives DOWN THE STREET! UGH. I let it go. Yesterday I went back to that same shop and this girl flaked on me again. She had confirmed coming the night before and the morning of. She also knew for a whole entire week. I get it if you don't want to come or can't but why can't I get a call or text saying so? Instead she ignores my calls and texts. I am very veryyy hurt by this. This is really important to me and she has been my best friend and it ment a lot to me for her to be there. I can't count on her ever. So I sent her a text saying I was done being her friend.

I needed to get this out.. I have kept it inside for too long. I feel free from this friendship. It was always so stressful for me but I didn't want to give up on her..It's just sad to have to re-evaluate a friend at a time like this. I'm getting married in 7 months! I wanted her to be apart of this.

I wanted to write this down so I remember how I felt and why I made the decision I did. Losing a friend is a sad thing, but I do have amazing friends (like Mia and Chelsea) that are always here for me. Things like this make you appreciate your real friends even more.