I had this friend

I had this friend that I have known for about five years. She is younger than me by a couple of years. I met her through myspace because she was dating this guy that I was starting to hang out with. We had a lot of mutual friends and she messaged me and we started texting and hanging out. It turns out she was on drugs. UGH! Do i hate drugs! She was a good person though and we had fun talking to each other. I ended up renting a room from her nana and shortly after she realized she was four (!!) months pregnant. We became best friends over this time because all of her friends wanted nothing to do with her. She wasn't going to be "fun" anymore. I felt bad for her because she was very sweet and really hurt by her friends.

Fast forward to now. Her child is the cutest little girl I've ever seen and is going to be four this year. I have watched her grow up and I have watched my friend get lost in drugs again and again. I have been battling with stopping my friendship with her for a very long time. I cannot sit back and watch her do drugs and ruin her life. Her head is in the clouds and no one is important to her anymore, not even her child. Her child is what has kept our friendship alive for so long. I feel so bad for the baby and wanted to be around for her. I always become the babysitter when we hang out, My "friend" always dissapears on the phone with her boyfriend when I come over. I have held on and kept telling myself that she needs a good friend in her life and she's just having a hard time...yada yada.

The first time I went wedding dress shopping, she didn't show up until the very end. Literally. I was done trying on dresses. She lives DOWN THE STREET! UGH. I let it go. Yesterday I went back to that same shop and this girl flaked on me again. She had confirmed coming the night before and the morning of. She also knew for a whole entire week. I get it if you don't want to come or can't but why can't I get a call or text saying so? Instead she ignores my calls and texts. I am very veryyy hurt by this. This is really important to me and she has been my best friend and it ment a lot to me for her to be there. I can't count on her ever. So I sent her a text saying I was done being her friend.

I needed to get this out.. I have kept it inside for too long. I feel free from this friendship. It was always so stressful for me but I didn't want to give up on her..It's just sad to have to re-evaluate a friend at a time like this. I'm getting married in 7 months! I wanted her to be apart of this.

I wanted to write this down so I remember how I felt and why I made the decision I did. Losing a friend is a sad thing, but I do have amazing friends (like Mia and Chelsea) that are always here for me. Things like this make you appreciate your real friends even more.

I found my wedding dress!!

Just when I thought I was in love with a dress I went to my second round of trying on wedding dresses (same dress shop). I took my friend beautiful friends Mia and Chelsea. (Chelsea is also getting married this year!) Well..I fell head over heels in love with the most perfect dress EVER!





When I first started my adventure to find my perfect wedding dress I didn't want a long dress or a big fluffy dress. I had no idea what I was missing out on during my first round of dress shopping. Today I tried on all long, fluffy wedding dresses and my heart was so happy when I was in them.

I am so glad to have friends like Mia and Chelsea. It was SO amazing to have great friends supporting me and helping me find my perfect dress. I am adding my own spin on the dress and I cannot waittttt to walk down the isle and feel like a princess in this gorgeous dress. I go back in one month to be measured. This gives me a little time to lose a few pounds.

While we were there one of the girls brought over a box of cupcakes and a card filled with signatures and sweet notes for Chelsea and I. We were really confused at first not knowing who it was from exactly. It was from my old co workers (and Chelsea's current co workers)! How sweeet! we both felt really loved! People are so sweet and thoughtful! It has been such a great great day!

Dreaming of..

This is my favorite dress from yesterday. My consultant, Rachel, told me that I would dream of THE ONE and here it is. I go back next week and I can't wait to get back into it. xo

Wedding Dresses Round One

Today was dedicated to wedding dress shopping! The first place I went to was where I fell in love. I fell in love with a short dress and a long dress. What a delema! I have a few more appointments at different wedding dress shops throughout the month. It's just a crazy feeling to be in a wedding dress shop, for ME.



It's just crazy to be at this point in my life. I want to soak this experience up. It's the best feeling to be able to share this with family and friends too.



I also got to have the cutest little helper too! She loved rummaging through all of the poofy dresses but liked the dresses for HER much better.

brand new car!

I am now the proud owner of a 2011 honda insight!

today had been an amazing and happy day. I was quite overdue for a new car. After four long hours yesterday, it's all mine. To add icing to my yummy cake of a day i had the day off work and even took a nap with B<3

C r o c h e t night

Tonight I got together with my two aunts (they're twins) + my cousin, Quin, and crocheted! YAY! I loveee crocheting. We are learning to do granny squares. I want to master granny squares and make a big blanket out of them. How cute, right? These pictures are from the early stages of the squares (obviously since it's not quite a square yet..) I love family time! I'm really excited for my aunts to come wedding dress shopping with me. We also talked about making turkey burgers sunday. yum! I can't wait.



I need to get some shut eye..I've got a long day tomorrow (4 hour sewing class after 8 hours of work). I am really REALLY looking forward to my sewing class though. I'm still in the early steps of my dress. I'll take some photos tomorrow of my progress. How are you all doing?

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I'm aliveeee

It's been awhile since I have blogged..I just have felt like I haven't had much to say. I have just been working a lot. I did recently started weight watchers and that is going okay. I did it a couple years ago and lost 15 pounds. This time around is harder for me..I'm not sure why. My goal now is to lost 1-2 pounds a week and by my birthday (june) it will be a good amount of pounds gone. I'd say that is pretty realistic.

I have some appointments this month for wedding dress shopping. I'm so excited! At first I was going to order a dress online and started having second thoughts. I would feel more comfortable trying dresses on before jumping in and being committed to a dress.



Brian and I got ipod touches a couple of weeks ago and boy (!) are we in love! We felt like we had been living under a rock and had no idea. We decided on ipod touches over iphones because we want to wait until we're married to extend any contracts and what not and also want to wait until the iphone5 comes out to invest in iphones. The ipod touch can get all the same apps and you can get wifi just about everywhere and it has been totally worth it for us. So far my favorite apps are: instagram, words with friends, starbucks mobile card, and tetris! What are some of your favorite apps?



So some goals for the week I have for the week are:

1. go to sewing class
2. start on my skirt with houndstooth fabric
3. gym at least 3 x
4. clean my car


What are your goals for the week?